5:30 am

This whole "acceptance" thing is harder than I thought. I just re-read my post three times from the other day. Lucas slept 8:30-12:30. Thats 4 hours. Then he slept 1-4 and 4-5. He is now awake for the day. I slept 10:15-12:30, 1:30-4 and 4:30-5. I'm so tired as I sip my coffee crack and watch him on his playmat sucking his toes. He rolled over again but this time his arm got stuck. It took an extra few seconds for me to go help him. I told him its because I'm tired. He doesn't really care. He thinks everything is funny, which I am grateful for. Yesterday was a rough cranky day for him so I definitely treasure these happy moments, even at 5am.

I need to work on this acceptance thing some more.